” I don’t understand why she doesn’t seem to care” Thank you and have a great weekend!


Hello? Are you there? Were you not paying attention or are you just an asshole with an attitude?  The title above is a sentence taken from an email sent to me, my husband his ex-wife regarding the 12-year-old, his student.  Where can I begin this post without using all the profanity I know?  As I have mentioned in earlier posts my step daughter is ADHD and needs a little encouragement from time to time.  She is a great kid, but her focus and concentration are AWOL.  Teachers  need more education regarding ADHD. It affects the executive function of the brain so yeah she will space off!  She will be disorganized and seem as if she doesn’t care.  So we all had a meeting with the teachers at the beginning of the year to address this issue and to submit to the school the report from the pediatric neurologist.  The doc wrote specific things that teachers can do to help her out.  Such as coming around and gently reminding her to stay on track, bring her back to reality or remind her that she can redo a test to get a better grade. I realize that burdening teachers with modifications specific to each ADHD kid is ridiculous thinking on the parents part. I get it. But sending an email saying that this kid seemingly wants to fail or that she stared at her paper because she doesn’t care is asinine!  I think he wasn’t paying attention at the parent teacher conference because his email sure does make you think he wasn’t.

So I should have a great weekend and talk to my kid on how to better get her on track and what all this means to her math class. Excuse me asshole did you not get any of my emails?  The ones that inform you and tell you that she is ADHD and that we need some accommodation for her.  Or the ones in which I have specifically asked about extra credit or redo’s for better grades.  Every fucking thing he addressed in his email is something we warned might happen because she is ADHD.  She is reading in class?  What is she reading?  Is she reading the directions or staring at her paper not knowing what to do?  Or is she reading some Zombie book she checked out from the library?  CAN YOU BE MORE SPECIFIC!!!  Is she being defiant or just quiet?  Sure does help when addressing the issue with her as you requested!

I don’t know about you but I as an ADHD person myself can see how this fucking moron is probably making her feel.  She is probably withdrawing and staying quiet so he doesn’t notice her and single her out in class as to what a kid should not be doing in his class.  I am not making excuses for students with disabilities.  I believe 100% that a child needs to work on his limitations and make themselves a routine that can help them with school, at least at 12 years old.  They should be participating in their “accommodations” and moving forward.  But, there is accommodation for a reason and mandatory for that matter.  So get your head out of your ass and be a good teacher.

We are born inquisitive and with the inherent need to learn. It is inevitable.  So before you say kids are lazy try and understand how they feel when they KNOW they are failing and don’t know how to progress.  But when you give someone a lesson in a language that is not native or known to them you are bound to have disinterested people.  ADHD is like that.  I want to do it but your math worksheets are in another language and there is no one willing to sit down with me, take their time to explain it and help me with it so I can feel like I can do it.  No one want to fail for the sake of failing.  NO ONE!

Afterthought:  Please don’t be offended if you are a teacher this is only me venting to one specific teacher not all teachers as a whole. I don’t believe in judgement of others as a group.


Love beautiful is not. But the outcome is extraordinarily beautiful!

High Key Hearts

That is my quote above in the title.  I remember one day long ago thinking.  ” this love business sucks and it isn’t all that people make it out to be.” I was in my late 20’s.  In a conversation with my dad about love I found the answer to my attitude about love.  I wasn’t actually looking for the answer since I thought I knew what it was.  But in his profound wisdom I found that what ever I thought I knew was wrong and it bothered me. If we go to the bible and read Corinthians 13 we see what love is in its true meaning.  It is not Valentine’s day and boxes of chocolate and expensive dinners.  It is a tremendous sacrifice that we make for those we profess our love to.  Now at 45 I can say that I have actually discovered what LOVE is and isn’t.  So it took me 20+ years to see what my dad talked about.  Here is the passage from the bible.  I know there are many version but I chose this one to use as my example.  Taken from http://www.catholic.org. 

 Love is always patient and kind; love is never jealous; love is not boastful or conceited, it is never rude and never seeks its own advantage, it does not take offence or store up grievances. Love does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but finds its joy in the truth. It is always ready to make allowances, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes. Love never comes to an end. But if there are prophecies, they will be done away with; if tongues, they will fall silent; and if knowledge, it will be done away with. For we know only imperfectly, and we prophesy imperfectly;but once perfection comes, all imperfect things will be done away with. When I was a child, I used to talk like a child, and see things as a child does, and think like a child; but now that I have become an adult, I have finished with all childish ways.  Now we see only reflections in a mirror, mere riddles, but then we shall be seeing face to face. Now I can know only imperfectly; but then I shall know just as fully as I am myself known.  As it is, these remain: faith, hope and love, the three of them; and the greatest of them is love. 

Now take a look at my title.  None of these things are beautiful, they are indeed some of the hardest things we have had to endure. Love is knowing that I might get hurt or rejected. Loving means taking a chance with my heart wide open on something I am afraid of.  Love is never being angry but instead putting aside my feelings and thoughts for someone who at that particular time may be hurting my being, my soul.  Love is simple sacrifice of oneself for another, and we know that is not simple. I think of this when I cannot seem to wrap my brain around my husbands ex wife’s ways of thinking or reasoning.  Mostly with regards to the well being of her daughter.  I know she loves her she is her mother but at times I wonder why a mother would put her needs before those of their child.  This can make me angry, but love is what I need to put me in a place where I can sort it out and think to myself, she is only human.  I have been a mom longer and I have made my share of mistakes and probably my share of selfishness with my own daughter.  But never did I do anything with out her in mind. I must love and reflect on my husbands ex wife’s life and accept her for who she is.  The more I do this the more I see a person not so unlike myself at times. A human being that is hurting and carrying around her own life and her own set of reasons for what ever I see that might not sit well with me. Who am I to judge that? The more I love the more I see the world in a way that is non threatening. It is sad sometimes but I am not afraid, not like I used to be. That is where the second part of my title comes in.  The outcome of our love and acceptance of what love really is, is EXTRAORDINARY! It really is.  If you can achieve this level of love and acceptance for others your life is at peace. Why because you are no longer fighting against yourself. You see the world in all its glory and all its darkness. The sunshine and the shadows you always avoid. It is humanity you see with it’s broken heart on it’s sleeve.  I am not perfect and I still doubt the things my dad explained and oh holy crap it gets hard.  But if you live every day with this in mind it might not be so bad when you come across something not so beautiful.  You might be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel( more on this in another post) and realize that your reward your outcome of such sacrifice is indeed BEAUTIFUL.  

Love yourself a little more each day.  



Peeps and Chirps

Today was a terrible day for being outside.  I live in Austin,Texas where every year the seasonal allergies kill me.  No joke cedar pollen is horrible this time of year.  Everyday I feel tired and all I want to do is sleep.  Remember that post where I told you all about my daughter? Well the joys of being impulsive can sometimes bring good things.  Where the thoughts of a person with bipolar disorder go and how they are processed and perceived is not at all what we would normally do.  But if it is used in a positive way they show you a thing or two. My daughter decided to surprise me with two little chicks!  I had already decided I wanted a couple of chickens but as with any animal I like to be prepared for them.  She tells me “they are like kids mom, they don’t come with instructions you just raise them”  She is 23 years old and I swear sometimes I think she is still a teenager.  Now I am the proud mother of two chicks and I have no idea what the hell I am supposed to be doing with them.  Thank God for Youtube and Google!  Stick with me and find out how great this can be. If you have any comments or advice on how to raise chick I am all ears! 

Welcome! What’s your beef with food?

Finally I am getting around to doing this little project.  Now if I can only gather my thoughts to make sense of it all.  Well to make enough sense for the world to understand what the hell I am blogging about!  Let’s take the title for example;  Cornish hens and left overs… well its simple.   For years now I have noticed that getting to know a person is best  done getting to know their idiosyncrasies’  about FOOD!  We are what we eat in more ways than one.   Hence the name of the blog where I found it peculiar that a person would not eat a Cornish hen because it was a baby chicken!  And forget about left overs it just wasn’t going to happen.  These obsessive compulsive behaviors are what gets us in the mess we are in.   That was a relationship I was in by the way and he turned out to be just as he was with food in our relationship.  So for all you out there that would like to share your thoughts and tribulations about food and life bring it on!